The ups are always worth the downs

My mixed up story I’m still tryin’ to drown

Anything to kill reality

Such a casualty

And I’m to blame

Drugged and Drunked like its going out of style

Then I think I may want to stay around awhile

No more sorrow or disguise

Just another chapter of my life I wish I could revise

I was so young

That’s when it begun

I thought you were the one for me

But you were never good for me

You introduced me to this way of life

Showed me the way

Then left, while I begged you to stay

Years went by and you came crawling to my side

I know now that you are

Just another chapter of my life I wish I could revise

These are stupid things

Compared to family

The pain I’ve caused can’t be undone

So I continue to run

Anyone who gets too close

I push away because I don’t want to impose

All this time I’ve wasted being wasted

I’m starting to realize this is

Just another chapter of my life I wish I could revise

Here I am

Once again

At home alone

With pen in hand

Drunk off boredom

You could call it that

But i'll just take another hit

And sit on back

(flick)(flick)

Mmm yeah just sit on back

And relax

Take a breath

Trace the thoughts in my head

They are the becoming of me

Anything that I try, I could be

It shouldn't be, but it's out of reach

Is what they'd all tell me

How to talk

What to wear

Should that be so defining?

If you look close you'll see the silver lining

Aligning my timing

With some inspirational rhyming

(flick flick)

Mmm yeah just sit on back

You see, authority can only go so far

And there's only so many times we can send our soldiers to war

In a perfect world we'd all take stand

Peace on Earth is what we'd demand

When reality sets in I realize we're a blink of an eye

From 2010.

Where have we came since 2001?

Do you think Bush wishes some things could be redone?

Now Obama's steppin' in and he's doin' his thing

Preachin' and deceivin' but still promising dreams

Not everything we thought they could be.

They say it's gettin' real bad

Haven't seen nothin' like this so called recession

Since the 1930's world wide depression

How do we know that our actions

Aren't gonna be more mistakes to fathom

We're striving to the top

Struggling with the baggage

"Beats On Its Own"

Searching for the words to put on the page,

I know they are there, simply lost, somewhere in the space...

The space between where you are now,

Gone away, without a doubt.

Easy for you I can see,

I just wish it was that simple for me.

I got over you once,

I know I can again,

It just makes no sense to me

How this even began.

I let you in, though I never let it show,

Took you for granted, but hated to see you go.

I've tried so hard to put you in the past,

But dreams and unfinished love,

Always seem to last.

The look in your eyes when you stare into mine,

Wanting to say those 3 words,

You ask, "What?",

But I cover feelings with lies.

I swear I do it all the time.

I can't trust another,

Shouldn't have trusted you,

You've changed me into a person,

Independent, yet consumed.

I wish for the day I know longer feel this way,

Hoping for the day you'll ask me to stay,

You know I would wait.

But it's no use now, you're too far gone.

As is my heart, as it beats on it's own.

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