"Beats On Its Own"

Searching for the words to put on the page,

I know they are there, simply lost, somewhere in the space...

The space between where you are now,

Gone away, without a doubt.

Easy for you I can see,

I just wish it was that simple for me.

I got over you once,

I know I can again,

It just makes no sense to me

How this even began.

I let you in, though I never let it show,

Took you for granted, but hated to see you go.

I've tried so hard to put you in the past,

But dreams and unfinished love,

Always seem to last.

The look in your eyes when you stare into mine,

Wanting to say those 3 words,

You ask, "What?",

But I cover feelings with lies.

I swear I do it all the time.

I can't trust another,

Shouldn't have trusted you,

You've changed me into a person,

Independent, yet consumed.

I wish for the day I know longer feel this way,

Hoping for the day you'll ask me to stay,

You know I would wait.

But it's no use now, you're too far gone.

As is my heart, as it beats on it's own.