Who am I?

I always thought I grew up too fast. The pressure to be popular almost; or well known, always resulted in me being someone who I wasn't. Which still confuses me because I know all of what I have experienced has made me into the person who I am today. Though somedays, like today, i'm more complicated then others. The rambling thoughts that go through my mind don't allow any room for progress; only examination. Chemicals to blame. It's time for a change. Always changing to avoid reality. With influences all around me I want to do good. I'm going to take this yet to be discovered gift and turn emotions into words before I engross in all the complications of this crazy life.