Untitled poetry by Rene Daumal

I am dead because I lack desire,

I lack desire because I think I possess.

I think I possess because I do no try to give.

In trying to give, you see that you have nothing;

Seeing that you have nothing, you try to give of yourself;

Trying to give of yourself, you see that you are nothing;

Seeing that you are nothing, you desire to become;

In desiring to become, you begin to live.

"Still You"

Months have passed us by

In different lives,

A different time,

Where your love is no longer mine.

But was it ever?

Who's to say for sure

Though I look back and can clearly remember.

It was almost June

I loved your eyes

You made me laugh,

We couldn't devise

A love so true

It seemed to be

So simply believed

Of course by me.

I was blind to see

The reality.

So young,

Too young,

It came undone.

Living a life far from responsible.

Or acceptable.

I lost you.

I lost me.

Wish it never had to come to that.

And that we could go back

To those careless nights

But I know we can't.

Hundreds of miles feel like so much more,

When our hearts no longer beat in sync,

And just add more pain to be endured.

I don't know how you are these days,

Or who, where or why

But the amount of time you're on my mind, is so defined.

First thing every morning,

And the last thing every night,

But mostly in my dreams it seems.

Because I know of the reality.

I've let you go,

I'm moving on,

I'm happy and I know

My journey so far is a part of the test,

I know I'm yet to have the best.

I'll just have to wait for this heartache to rest,

So that I can progress,

Get past this.

Why is it still you I miss?

C-Money

Here we are once again,

My love,

My friend.

Somewhere in between,

I know you see.

We're getting closer to something.

I'm trusting.

Or trying.

To get past this.

To better timing.

You've got it all laid out for me.

Patiently waiting.

Though we might struggle

I'm fighting.

Two steps forward.

One step back.

I know it's not easy,

But you can't force somethin' like that.

Who you are to me

You'll never know.

The past is all we have to show.

Pushing towards the future now,

Waiting to be found.

Both waiting for it to come around.

"Somewhere In between"

I'm stuck in this destructive state of mind,

Knowing what I want, I could find

But seeing my dreams

Far from this reality.

No motivation

Or reason for this doubt,

There's too much stress then my body will allow.

I need to take some time to align

My heart and soul together as one

Trying to see where the separation begun.

I need hope and direction

I'm not striving for perfection.

Just put me somewhere in between

My dreams and reality

With help I'll find my way from there.

Swerving off the path, you'd think i'd never dare.

But this necessary change i seek

Will allow prosperity to peak.

I'll get there some how,

Just wish it could be now.