If Only She Could See

You only see me 

I wish you could see through me

I'm new to this

I had my chance but I missed

Seeing you was the turing point I couldn't avoid

I began to wonder if that boy was just a decoy

I sit here not knowing what to do

Wondering if maybe I should choose

Silly, because it's not even up to me

Would be so much easier if only she could see

Revise

The ups are always worth the downs

My mixed up story I’m still tryin’ to drown

Anything to kill reality

Such a casualty

And I’m to blame

Drugged and Drunked like its going out of style

Then I think I may want to stay around awhile

No more sorrow or disguise

Just another chapter of my life I wish I could revise

I was so young

That’s when it begun

I thought you were the one for me

But you were never good for me

You introduced me to this way of life

Showed me the way

Then left, while I begged you to stay

Years went by and you came crawling to my side

I know now that you are

Just another chapter of my life I wish I could revise

 

These are stupid things

Compared to family

The pain I’ve caused can’t be undone

So I continue to run

Anyone who gets too close

I push away because I don’t want to impose

All this time I’ve wasted being wasted

I’m starting to realize this is

Just another chapter of my life I wish I could revise